it took some doing on my part to get my talaaq. my ex hubby was giving me the run around and the Moulana had to track him down, minutes beofre he boarded the flight, heading for overseas for 6 months. Alhamdulilah he was reached in the nic of time, and he gave me talaaq, albeit, reluctantly.

Ah..can u smell that…..yes..thats freedom. a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. for months ive had to endure unequal treatment, hardship, pain. the man virtually ignored me for months. he libes 5 minutes away from me, yet he never came by to see me of our baby. that really hurt.

then there were rumors that hes taken a 3rd wife. that shattered my world. he kept denying it, but i dont know what to make of it, especially since he wasnt spending any time with me or wife number one. hes a man after all, so who was seeing to his manly needs.

on a bright note………………….a whole new world of mystery awaits me. im enchanted and afraid all at once. there are endless possibilites here. time will tell what the future has in store for me.

but then, im afriad that FW will make a scene. STBEH assured me that she wont make a scene . he said he wont tolerate it. what should i do?

alos i dont want FW thinking that im there to gloathe or rub salt in her wounds cos she still sint ok that me and STBEH are married. she has never accpeted that reality.

wahst should i do?

i embraced polygamy as a way of life for me. i did all the research read, all the horror stories, was in it for almost 2 years, still in it technically. eventhough, my first polygamous marriage, was a total flop, i havent written off the concept. i can see how it would work well into my hectic life.

i made peace with it and i have no issues about sharing a hubby with another woman, or 2 or 3 other woman for that matter. my concern is justice and equal treatment of all the wives.

to me, polygamy is an adventure. it gives u room to grow and room to explore other aspects of your life. when my hubby is around, i have less time to do the things i want to do. i have to cater for him and his needs and i find little time to read, or do to stuff that i really like

but when hes away, i have the freedom to be my own person, read books, be goofy. i have more time to explore other aspects of my life. and i need that time and space so much, as im on this journey of self discovery.

having a full time hubby around 247 is not what i really want. yet i still long for the security of knowing that im not alone, and that i have someone to share my life with and my dreams with. the time apart does wonders for me.

i believe that polygamy is a beautiful gift from God and if practiced correctly, according to the quran and Sunnah, than many women and men would be reaping the rewards thereof. its sad however, that some men choose to abuse this .

this is a major breakthrough for me. i have come to accept that i didnt just accept polygamy becos i married the love of my life and i couldnt imagine my life without him. it wasnt even about him. it was about me and always has been, it took me so long to figure that out. now with this new knowledge i feel more equipped to face challenges that lie ahead.

im proud to be muslim, and im proud that i have come to accept polygamy. ofcourse its not for everyone. im not saying that im better than anyone cos i love polygamy. this is about me and my preference. i respect all those that value monogamy and arent willing to enter into polygamy. its their choice. t

as polygamy is mine. im not gonna go out there looking for a married man to get into a polygamous marriage with. but if it does happen, im ready and willing to embrace it.

Allah knows best, and if its allahs will that i be in a monogamous , marriage eventhough, i have a preference for polygamy, im not gonna force my hubby to take a second wife, just cos i love polygamy either.

then i was overly happy for a while. i was in denial. each day i would dress up, put on my make up and stay awake all night waiting for him. but he never came

then i got depressed all over again. ive been on this roller coaster ride for 8 months now. up and down. extreme joy..extreme pain

finally im in healing now. i have accepted the fact that its TRULY OVER and that hes not coming back. PLUS, i dont want him to come back in any event. he doesnt deserve my love or time. not after the way he treated me. he had his chance and he blew it. so its tickets for him now.

will it end the day he divorces me and set me free. i will observe my 3 months iddah and then have closure

will it end when i find a new love. someone to fill the void in my heart

will it never end? will it end if he decides to come back to me. YEAH RITE>>>keep dreaming girl. he doesnt want me. he left me. he walked out on me. we were so happy together, or so i thought,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,then he upped and left. no disagrement. no arguing. he just left. he lied that he woudl be back the same nite. but next day, he came back like a cowrd, while i was at work and he took his stuff. he didnt even have the gutts to face me and tell em its over. COWard!!!!!!!!! i hate cowards.